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by sonja berlin-jones

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God almighty everyone yesterday out in the shops was miserable - same as every day of course - the only ones still alive are my age and older, we're not so addicted to porn and games and the phone and the socials, when we've been laughed at till we die the world will just be full of the totally addicted, a lifetime of days of emptiness filled with the pacing back and forth of caged animals - rats whose cage doors are wide open but who won't leave - yesterday I knew that my own bouts of boredom come from my life being too comfortable - I sat in the Maritimo over lunchtime with a couple of people and we talked about the ways we fill our days and the fact that these ways seem so desperate, until you start thinking of the alternatives - similarly desperate-sounding. So even though we don't computer-game or watch porn and we can go hours or all day/week without looking at a phone, we have no reason to feel smug.

Today I won't be going ice skating or climbing the ladder to repair the neighbour's TV aerial. The government has done more to destroy this country and there's little that we can do to help them make it even worse - things will only get better after they've got a lot worse - it's like how you can only show someone how stupid their stupid idea is if you take it to an extreme and even they have to finally admit that yeah it's stupid. I won't be shopping any more (than I have to), I won't be phoning any more (ditto), I won't be doing any of the things that I do in order to fill the time because of boredom - instead it's time to work out just why the boredom exists, and change things. That means making things harder - in a good way - thru discipline. In a few hours I shall be miles from here, away on the road, any direction except south, not expecting to find any kind of paradise because everywhere now is the same, everyone is the same, no one has a clue - but simply being behind the wheel takes work, exploring new towns takes work, avoiding getting lost in other people's forests takes work, and much of the work doesn't pay, being cold isn't fun but it is feeling alive, leisure isn't worth anything at all, it's even more depressing than work, even the good work, and finding that good work takes discipline.

recorded these past couple of days, photo London South Bank

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released December 21, 2022

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