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FRIDAY 22 MARCH
This one is very similar to the very recent Hyperminimal Hadj For March - which I liked very much and didn't think anyone else would like and I have been humbled to find it is my second most downloaded thing and I even got actual real-life fan mail about it. Jubilation. Pity about this one's pretentious title - but it got lodged in my head after reading something by John Cheever - suuuch a fan of American alcoholic writers.
In "real life" I'm quite shy and quiet and defer to others - but I've noticed that in print and in these Bandcamp rambles I come across as quite arrogant and didactic and also totally hypocritical - saying that people mustn't try to be liked and they must be brave - and yet all the time I seem to make music which I hope will be likable and I am rarely brave enough to follow my own heart - so you can see how nice it is to finally make something I wanted and for it to find an audience - albeit of only about two people.
I'm listening to White Car In Germany on repeat and because I wear hipster genes I've usually been pretty early in loving the cool bands before most other people but for some reason The Associates are one band I only fell for years after everyone else - and that makes for a special kind of love.
Incidentally I now officially have Old-Person's taste in music - I didn't like Bowie or MBV, but I do love the new Simple Minds single. I should be ashamed I suppose. Finally another reminder of my real-life physical album which has been out almost a week now and I still haven't heard anyone play it on Radio 2 yet.
I haven't heard anything from Rest/Relax/Records since the weekend which undoubtedly means it is doing embarrassingly badly and hasn't sold a copy yet. Believe me - I don't care for my own sake - I've always loved the freedom of being unpopular. But I do feel embarrassed when others have faith and maybe think that someone who's done over a hundred Bandcamp albums must've picked up quite a fanbase by now - and I haven't. But really it is early days yet - we're all in it for the long game - vindication has so far always come eventually.
www.restrelaxrecords.co.uk/sonja-berlin-jones---phlegmgemming.html
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released March 22, 2013